..I'll wait until you're home..

I was so uplifted with the stranger I met on our ward a couple of days ago. He was the son of one of our debilitated patients. Seeing his vibrant face playing along our corridor gave me a sense of longing to have someone like him which probably prompted me to write this one. It might be really early to figure out a promising future, call me crazy but that what makes me sane..

My little one,

 As you know, you are always in my mind. So one day, I visited a woman to checked me up. I was afraid of the pain I'm feeling in my tummy, which in the long run will be your temporary home. She is called an OB, a specialist for precious creature like you. I was relieved when she told me that I don't have to worry much and was rather advised that I should  have you soon.

As I watched that little stranger playing at my workplace, I am thinking of you. Yes, I have been conceiving you in my mind even before you are conceive. I'm wondering how would it feel  your first kick on my tummy..Or if you will have a strong umbilical cord like I used to cut when I was exposed to Delivery room..And when you're out, I wonder if you will recognize my eyes that longed to see you..if I run my fingertip over your little nose..my hand might be shaking then.. or how it is smelling your flimsiest delicate skin..or kissing those tiny soles..

.I have so much in mind to teach you; just don't ask me why the image on the concave part of the spoon is inverted no matter how you hold it right. I swear I'll be having an intracranial hemorrhage thinking for a plausible answer.

We would be reading together, even if  I'll be hearing only mumbles from your  salivating mouth while you are holding the book upside-down..I'm excited to think if you will  also like vanilla icecream.. oh, I'll whisper in your ear why it's my favorite.We would paint together . And even if you are only making crooked lines and circles, that would be the best masterpiece I'll ever treasure. I cannot promise to be the best mommy in the world but I'll make sure I can be your bestfriend. By the way, I have already a name for you. But I need to consult it first with the man. Don't be jealous sweetheart, you will eventually call him "Dad".

So while you are still far away from me, I will always be thinking of you..

Take good care my precious one because you are my ultimate dream..

and because you are my soul's desire, I will wait..

I will wait until you are home..

right at Mommy's arms..

I'll see you soon,

-Mom