07 April 2014

..when God asked me to have a double chocolate chip muffins..

(c) Silver Pen
I always love telling my story of being stuck up in Singapore Airport for 12 hours. For those who wasn't able to read that blog entry, this is a refresher. I was on my way back to Riyadh when I learned that my flight has actually a 12-hour gap when I was expecting of only 2 hours of stay before my connecting flight. Not to mention the a) dreary separation anxiety being away from home again, b) having only a book and laptop in my bag, and c) a half day of having not showered (I swear I had a long bath after). Pessimist called it a series of unfortunate events, while an optimist believed it to be a series of blessings hiding among unwanted circumstances. Because at the end of my unexpected 12-hour lag, I was given a seat. A Business Class seat. 

This reminds me of the many Bible stories of the long wait. How Noah endured the years of building the Ark for that night and day's of downpour, how Moses was prepared for that magnificent parting of the sea, how Elizabeth in her old age gave birth to a son, how Anna waited for Jesus on the day He was offered in the temple, and the list goes on. It can blow your mind to think that those parch years of waiting seemed to be fruitless, agonizing, and I'll understand when Elizabeth said, "how could this happen in my old age?" Again, only one answer can drag us back to reality. God's time is always the perfect time. That a close door to many is an entry way for God. That a No, is a turning Yes when He wade His mighty hand. 

I've been single for years and seriously, I dated no one. You know, emotionally entangled with someone else. This part of my life seemed to be parched, untamed by my own choices and priorities, agonizing in a way I doubted if I am meant to live a life of marriage and raising kids ( I want 5), or simply raising orchids, cross-stitching and feeding and bathing orphaned children (yeah, it crosses my mind sometimes but I would want to get away with the thought. As I said, I still want 5.) I sometimes feel like being one of the stars in the night sky. The one that is not so starry-starry. I'd like to believe though, that in those nights when I would stare at the sky, he would stare at it, too. 

I realized why I was given the chance to experienced a set back that night in Singapore Airport. God was saying, "Miss Tan, slow down. You are not superwoman, but know that I am your super God. Sit down, have a double chocolate chip muffins, read, see me among the crowd, hear me among the sound of boiling coffee, taste my goodness by keeping still. What are you in a hurry of? Don't you realize that I can give you all that you will ask for? Did you forget how gracious your God is? But if I'll give you everything that you want, how will you know Me?"


Do you feel like being stuck up?

Are you having a lag?

God must be preparing your Business Class flight. =)




 

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