The lights in the room are now put off. My only source of light is coming from my computer screen. I can hear some musical notes from my roommate's snoring that brought a smile on my creamed-face while indulging with the warmth of my spongebob comforter and once in a while giddy movements of my toes. I have a tiring duty this past days but having some sort of "mental instability" always lead me to being in the state of composure. I have this peculiar feeling of strong conviction that something so beautiful will soon knock at my doorsteps. That whenever I look at the sunshine whenever I have my morning travel to the hospital, I can't help but close my eyes and thank God for the joy He is investing in my heart. The joy that does not come from having expensive stuffs and all, but something that is so intangible yet so very real you cannot do anything less but just be grateful. Call me mad (and you'll make me proud,haha) but there are certain point of the moment when it seems that the Earth has no opposite poles, no longitudes and latitudes, no verticals and horizontals, only that single inconceivable point where you feel that all is exactly one and the same, that God is real and is very present. That nothing there is to be done on that moment but to breathe the love immensely available, given with overflowing generosity you'll say "what more is there to ask for, what more in life is more important than to feel being loved every single day, what more there is that God cannot do for His most beloved?"
I have my joyful palpitations intricately woven in a manner I have very little understanding where it is coming from. I confess that my life's journey is a whole lot like a night traveler with excess baggage. I traversed an unfamiliar road, felt that the night seemed darker with another step and no one I knew will lift a finger once they come to learn my excess baggage. But as just there are guiding stars no matter how dark the night is, the light of gentle grace casts its shadow on my path I was able to finally unload what's keeping me down a slow walk. Indeed, there's nothing bigger for God's mercy, nothing so convoluted that He cannot solve, nothing irreparable that He cannot make new. There's nothing you have done to disinherit His love. Nothing.
Are you burdened lately? Have you ever felt like traveling in the night with nowhere to stop? Has life been unfair you do not want to take another step? If God made that dark night, could He not flip your fate and send out the brightest day?
Give your heart to the Lord, He'll make unconditional amends. His heart is too big for your indemnities. Just come, He is waiting. I guess, His arm's already open=)
When will you give your heart?
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