..the morning after..

I had so much blessings to thank God these past days. I noticed that the more I am updating my Gratitude Journal, the more blessings come my way. I am just so overwhelmed how life is treating me and my family. We are so soaked with God's providences.

There were times when I still had my "fits" of loneliness but just as the song said, "die just a little"..One night as I am lying on the sofa with my feet elevated, I stopped momentarily from reading the book on my hand. With eyes closed, I imagine myself standing back and seeing the grand scheme of mylife. I asked myself what else am I wanting, what else should I be needing. I breathe deep and exhaled. I introspected  my relationship with my family, my friends, my colleagues, my patients, the people who simply care in their special ways. I breathe deep and exhaled. I tasted the bittersweet memories of failing and winning..I realized that there were more of winnings, but that I would still welcome failing because I am more strengthened when I am on the verge of losing. I asked myself if I wanted where I am now and what I have become. I breathe deep and exhaled. 

I opened my eyes. No one sees a blessing with eyes shut. I am happy with my relationship with my family: the  conversations I had with them especially the free-flowing Iloveyou's. I am building good rapport with my friends and colleague, sharing part of my time with them over coffee or dining table, listening to their sentiments and in return, relating my own experiences..then we ended up teasing each other and thanking the times that our roads met. I am inspired by the children whom I promised myself to devote whatever I was and will be blessed of. With my eyes opened, I took a deep breathe..and smiled. I had a foretaste of the life I wanted. I am immensely blessed, and my God keeps on getting me soak in the ocean of blessings. I realized that if you want to get people, GET LOSE. Lose your time, lose your wealth, your energy (if needed), even lose yourself. Build relationships over building money. Build friendship over material things. I am energized, rejuvenated, uplifted, overwhelmed by each morning I feel so much alive..this morning, I am living..the morning after tomorrow, and the morning after..

P.S. There will still be periods of my "fits"..that is for sure..but then again, I will "die just a little"..