..what are you afraid of?..

The room is of total darkness. It's roughly 10:00 o' clock in the evening. I came in carrying with me the medication tray. It's due time for his pain reliever. I switched on the light as any nurse would do the same considering my safety first. In plain manner, he asked "are you afraid?". "Afraid of what?", my reply in question form. "Because it's dark" he said. I handed him the cup of tablets. "I'm not afraid. I've been there".

"Are you afraid?" If my patient happened to ask this question a couple of years ago, then my answer could have been a yes. If only I can disclose in this blog the worst article I've ever composed and disappear thereafter. But then again, I am sticking as to what my header reads, "life's great lessons". I had already let go of the boat loaded with the heaviest weight anchored in the harbor called "past". It felt like I was vacuumed  from a canister of total eclipse. A space I thought I would fight all alone relentlessly. Surely, there's always an end as there's always a beginning. Just as no matter how long and tedious a night is, dawn awaits to break to cast out rays of hope. 

In many occasions of our journey, we bumped to an enormous roads of choices. Most often than not, we managed to made the wrong ones. We fell to baits of worldly trappings. We rubbed elbows with dead ends. We ruined relationships. We hurt others and double injured ourselves. And it sorely and deeply hurts. We are afraid to make choices again for the fear of many fears. We are then force to live in the perimeter of mediocrity because there in that space, you don't need to make a choice. You just have to live with it and by it. And you started to die each day. Every single day.

From afar, someone sees and feels your pains. He knows your troubles and sufferings. For He was with you in all your wrong choices till you made to the dead ends. He saw you sobbing in the cold dark room, His eyes were filled with tears too. Slowly, He reached out and turned on the switch of light called "love". It pains terribly in the eyes since you were accustomed living without the light. In a tender voice with arms wrapping around you, He whispered in your ear "Don't be afraid. It is I". You raised your head, fighting the pain of lights' beam. You saw the eyes welled in tears, tenderly looking intently on you. He held out His hand  and started drying your cheeks, the same hand who bear the nails. "I have always loved you, in all your wrongs and in all your rights . I have walked with you in all the seasons of your life, I rejoiced in your victories, my smile ear-length and cried with you in your emptiness. I have hugged you tighter in the nights where you blame my absence and will continue hugging you even when you turned your back on me. Nothing that you have done that will take my eyes off you, for you are my one great love. I will run after you, and will never get tired chasing you. Until you will give your glance back on me. Until you will feel that I am on the air that you breathe. Until you will love me again. I will be patient in your wounds, just as I was patient on the cross. I love you as I always does. Be healed with my constant love"

What are you afraid of my beloved? Come to Your Father. Don't be afraid. It is I. -God