..the gift called Pause..

"Why are we  embarrassed  by silence? What comfort do we find in all the noise?"- Tuesdays with Morrie

I arrived wasted last night. Wasted not because of inebriation (how I wish I was,lol) but because of an ardous workload in our ever busy ward. I swung the door open and no one is around, no clatters in the receiving room, even a left turned-on television. It's hard this way. The silence is reverberating all around the corners and you cannot identify the proper sound. Silence yells so loud that the echo bounce back big time. It's hazardous to the eardrums. 

As I lay wide awake after a nonchalant day, I recognized a gift not everyone wants to welcome; a gift often perceived as annoying. 

For the past years, I was not into a commitment or kind enough to say "no strings attached". I stayed to be carefree, stress-free, wrinkle-free, anniversary-free, boyfriend-free, whatever singles out there wants to call it. If basing my status on Maslow's Hierarchy of needs, it's a shame I cannot proceed to a higher level of the ladder..LOL At 26, I'm untamed. At 26, I'm on a pause. And so while I lazily watch the wide space of my room's ceiling and keeping my head overlaid on my comfy pillow, I thank God for the gift. 

Face it singles out there. We have a pretty honey-sweet life. We can dress ourselves with what we want without someone dictating us not to wear this or wear that. No one to pre-empt with your schedules should you want to date your girlfriends. No one to ask for your Facebook password and meticulously asking for who's-this-highschool-friend-of yours-asking-for-your-number. No one to re-shuffle the YOU to fit in to his own creation of who he wants you to be.

Annoyed by the pause? Think again. It's an ample time to renovate yourself after someone had hit you hard after a hurtful exit. Be the person that you want to be and go where you can throw your wings freely. Life is just really so short. Be sassy, live jovially, forget about the chase or else you will chase time for the moments wasted in chase, don't ask for miracles, be someone else's miracle. Don't settle for less because you were created with the most intimate love. Allow God to meddle and break you. Don't sew a space created by a goodbye. You are destined to propel to something better, not to be tied up to the persons who walked away from you. Pause for a while but get ready for the "strike of lightning" called love. God created them, and He created them for you. Just leave a space for that beautiful sparks of light. And never close your eyes..You don't want to miss the lightning, do you?=)

I'm single? Nah, just on a gift of Pause!