..inspired by Red..

Have you ever experienced dragging your feet off  from bed and finding anything to keep you going? I happened to read an article way back 2 years ago. It was about someone who is undergoing an emotional ordeal. Basing on the tone of his ink, he was running from his love ones on the fear of rejection. It's as if he wanted to "pay" the sins he didn't specified by running away..By cleansing his soul, he imposed self-punishment. He turned away from the people he loves and who loves him. These lines hit me the most.."With tears in my eyes, I've fallen asleep. I woke up the next day, and I knew I was never alone".. I re-read his story over and over again, feeling his own pain and desolation. I understand his own idea of running away to keep himself and the people around him from hurting. Whenever I'm feeling the weight of the world about to touch my shoulders, I always remember his lines. Human as I am, bumibigay din ako minsan..

Today, I happened to read again another article from him. It is very comforting knowing that I found a hint that he's on his way of healing from whatever wounds he used to run away from. Let me share to you his article I received just today:

His waking moments are filled with thoughts that bring the morning to a standstill. The sun has barely touched the corners of his room, yet his heart already looks for the moon’s soft glow. For this man, each day has become marked with wisps of silent struggles between laughter and tears, of strength and weakness, of hope and despair. His soul  and happiness is locked inside the gridiron battle between reason and emotion impervious to those around him.

The heart longs for another's presence who once shared its space; yet, to place one's meaning and happiness on another person does not only invite longing and pertubrbation, but also creates a void.

And for the man who is trapped in the invisible battle of reason and emotion, true peace and joy can only come when one surrenders to the healing love of Jesus Christ.

 

Hi Red,

 

Thank you for touching my heart again by the story of your pains and your healing. I will never forget those lines. And just to inform you that I remember you upon seeing sunrise.

 

 

.. My October sets out brightly inspired! and for now, I will sleep soundly tonight..=)