..born to forgive..born to love..

Have you ever experienced being singled out despite giving your best shot in lending your hands to help others? But ended up being the villain? How would you react when a close friend failed to protect you in a situation where you think she is much capable to be your protector? Or when your expected kind words turned to be hurtful?

I'm still a girl at heart. I would still hug my pillows under my blanket while sobbing my heart out when I'm hurt. I would still call my mom in my head just like as if someone robbed my doll from me. I still drew my legs toward my chest as if doing so will barricade me from more pains. I'm still a girl who would call to my God, asking for the grace that like kids, I can always forgive. I'm still a girl who would wake up with bedazzled hair in pajama, would run to the mirror and can still manage to say "you were created beautiful" with my eyebags which seemed to lost weight after sometime of crying.

I'm still a girl. Because I can forgive despite the blows. I may cry, yes, and I'm good at it but mind you that it is my alternative medicine. You can hurt me but you can never changed the fact that I was born to forgive, because I was destined to love. Because I was raised by loving people, and that makes me to forgive. You can hurt me and that is only for a while because my heart cannot tolerate rubbish things such as grudge. Because as what I told you, I was destined to love.

As what my mentor said and I would like to share this to you:

The only way to truly forgive others is to forgive yourself first.

We are living in an imperfect world, everyday you'll be hurt. Someone will throw a stone in you, someone will step at your toe, someone will slander your name. But remember that you, too, is imperfect. So let your matters rest in God's hands.

I can assure you that I'm not exempted from everyday blows. I'm still vulnerable to the 'stones' of life. But as long as I believe that I am forgiven because of love, who am I not to do the same? Afterall, we all live in circles. What we give will be equally reciprocated.

How do you forgive? And how often?